Exercising My Butt Off

So, I've been pretty good about exercising every other day now. After meeting with the pulmonologist last week, the entire day gave me good reason to. Not so much that doctor, but meeting with my cardiologist. He was quite ridiculous. I had to wait an extra hour and a half to see him for a five minute conversation.

Good news: ALL OF MY ISSUES CAN BE SOLVED IN ONE SHOT! YAY!

Bad news: Surgery is most likely going to be near or on my birthday.

Two people have now said that if I have the surgery on my birthday, I would be reborn again. Kinda cool thought I guess and something to think about if it actually does happen on my birthday. Somehow, my intuition feels like it will be right around there.

My intuition has been pretty spot on which kinda scares me but I guess in a lot of cases it's too good sometimes. I want my life for the next few months to be some of the best months of my life thus far. My friends are there but sometimes, I know they give up on me and I wish they wouldn't.

It sucks not having some friends there when you need them most and it sucks even more knowing that you've pushed them away. At the end of the day though, are they your friends?

I find the best way to deal lately, is just to go for walks or workout because I need to distress somehow. Its funny though, when I'm not intentionally trying, I know I'm actually eating healthier too than I once was. Or less at least. Not quite sure. I did avoid the apple pie though!

I'm hoping that those around me will continue to be optimistic and know that change in me is imminent. I don't think life will be the same after surgery and not just in the sense of physically, but mentally as well. I already know that I'm not taking life for granted nearly as much as I used to. Nor am I taking granted the people who are in my life. For every single one of them putting up with me, I am beyond grateful and I really hope they know how much I love them. My world has become about the people I love and I don't think I would have it any other way.

Life isn't worth living without it.

Life is going to get better. I just know it and I know all those around me, even though there are some dark days right now, there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Keep on moving and enjoying the days together with your loved ones as much as possible.

   
 Enjoy life and make sure you take time to enjoy the beauty of whats around you!

Attempting to get into shape and hoping anyone who is reading this, will try to do so too!

<3
Jess